only one core
restriction—and if you think about it； you can probably figure it out for
yourself。〃
I thought about it。 〃Nope； I have no idea。〃
She shook her head； disappointed。 〃Maybe it's too obvious。 We just have to
keep our existence a
secret。〃
〃Oh；〃 I mumbled。 It was obvious。
〃It makes sense； and most of us don't need policing；〃 she continued。 〃But；
after a few centuries；
sometimes one of us gets bored。 Or crazy。 I dor't know。 And then the Volturi
step in before it can
promise them； or the rest of us。〃
〃So Edward〃
〃Is planning to flout that in their own city—the city they've secretly held
for three thousand years； since
the time of the Etruscans。 They are so protective of their city that they
don't allow hunting within its walls。
Volterra is probably the safest city in the world—from vampire attack at the
very least。〃
〃But you said they didn't leave。 How do they eat？〃
〃They don't leave。 They bring in their food from the outside； from quite far
away sometimes。 It gives their
guard something to do when they're not out annihilating mavericks。 Or
protecting Volterra from
exposure〃
〃From situations like this one； like Edward；〃 I finished her sentence。 It was
amazingly easy to say his
name now。 I wasn't sure what the difference was。 Maybe because I wasn't really
planning on living much
longer without seeing him。 Or at all； if we were too late。 It was forting
to know that I would have an
easy out。
〃I doubt they've ever had a situation quite like this；〃 she muttered；
disgusted。 〃You don't get a lot of
suicidal vampires。〃
The sound that escaped out of my mouth was very quiet； but Alice seemed to
understand that it was a
cry of pain。 She wrapped her thin； strong arm around my shoulders。
〃We'll do what we can； Bella。 It's not over yet。〃
〃Not yet。〃 I let her fort me； though I knew she thought our chances were
poor。 〃And the Volturi will
get us if we mess up。〃
Alice stiffened。 〃You say that like it's a good thing。〃
I shrugged。
〃Knock it off； Bella； or we're turning around in New York and going back to
Forks。〃
〃What？〃
〃You know what。 If we're too late for Edward； I'm going to do my damnedest to
get you back to
Charlie； and I don't want any trouble from you。 Do you understand that？〃
〃Sure； Alice。〃
She pulled back slightly so that she could glare at me。 〃No trouble。〃
〃Scout's honor；〃 I muttered。
She rolled her eyes。
〃Let me concentrate； now。 I'm trying to see what he's planning。〃
She left her arm around me； but let her head fall back against the seat and
closed her eyes。 She pressed
her free hand to the side of her face； rubbing her fingertips against her
temple。
I watched her in fascination for a long time。 Eventually； she became utterly
motionless； hei face like a
stone sculpture。 The minutes passed； and if I didn't know better； I would have
thought she'd fallen asleep。
I didn't dare interrupt her to ask what was going on。
I wished there was something safe for me to think about。 I couldn't allow
myself to consider the horrors
we were headed toward； or； more horrific yet； the chance that we might fail—
not if I wanted to keep
from screaming aloud。
I couldn't anticipate anything； either。 Maybe； if I were very； very； very
lucky； I would somehow be able
to save Edward。 But I wasn't so stupid as to think that saving him would mean
that I could stay with him。
I was no different； no more special than I'd been before。 There would be no
new reason for him to want
me now。 Seeing him and losing him again
I fought back against the pain。 This was the price I had to pay to save his
life。 I would pay it。
They showed a movie； and my neighbor got headphones。 Sometimes I watched the
figures moving
across the little screen； but I couldn't even tell if the movie was supposed
to be a romance or a horror
film。
After an eternity； the plane began to descend toward New York City。 Alice
remained in her trance。 I
dithered； reaching out to touch her； only to pull my hand back again。 This
happened a dozen times before
the plane touched town with a jarring impact。
〃Alice；〃 I finally said。 〃Alice； we have to go。〃
I touched her arm。
Her eyes came open very slowly。 She shook her head from side to side for a
moment。
〃Anything new？〃 I asked in a low voice； conscious of the man listening on the
other side of me。
〃Not exactly；〃 she breathed in a voice I could barely catch。 〃He's getting
closer。 He's deciding how he's
going to ask。〃
We had to run for our connection； but that was good—better than having to
wait。 As soon as the plane
was in the air； Alice closed her eyes and slid back into the same stupor as
before。 I waited as patiently as
I could。 When it was dark again； I opened the window to stare out into the
flat black that was no better
than the window shade。
I was grateful that I'd had so many months' practice with controlling my
thoughts。 Instead of dwelling on
the terrifying possibilities that； no matter what Alice said； I did not intend
to survive； I concentrated on
lesser problems。 Like； what I was going to say to Charlie if I got back：' That
was a thorny enough
problem to occupy several hours。 And Jacob？ He'd promised to wait for me； but
did that promise still
apply？ Would I end up home alone in Forks； with no one at all？ Maybe I didn't
want to survive； no
matter what happened。
It felt like seconds later when Alice shook my shoulder—I hadn't realized I'd
fallen asleep。
〃Bella；〃 she hissed； her voice a little too loud in the darkened cabin full of
sleeping humans。
I wasn't disoriented—I hadn't been out long enough for that。
〃What's wrong？〃
Alice's eyes gleamed in the dim light of a reading lamp in the row behind us。
〃It's not wrong。〃 She smiled fiercely。 〃It's right。 They're deliberating； but
they've decided to tell him no。〃
〃The Volturi？〃 I muttered； groggy。
〃Of course； Bella； keep up。 I can see what they're going to say。〃
〃Tellme。〃
An attendant tiptoed down the aisle to us。 〃Can I get you ladies a pillow？〃
His hushed whisper was a
rebuke to our paratively loud conversation。
〃No； thank you。〃 Alice beamed at up at him； her smile shockingly lovely。 The
attendant's expression was
dazed as he turned and stumbled his way back。
〃Tell me；〃 I breathed almost silently。
She whispered into my ear。 〃They're interested in him—they think his talent
could be uselul。 They're going
to offer him a place with them。〃
〃What will he say？〃
〃I can't see that yet； but I'll bet it's colorful。〃 She grinned again。 〃This
is the first good news—the first
break。 They're intrigued； they truly don't want to destroy him—'wasteful；'
that's the word Aro will
use—and that may be enough to force him to get creative。 The longer he spends
on his plans； the better
for us。〃
It wasn't enough to make me hopeful； to make me feel the relief she obviously
felt。 There were still so
many ways that we could be too late。 And if I didn't get through the walls
into the Volturi city； I wouldn't
be able to stop Alice from dragging me back home。
〃Alice？〃
〃What？〃
〃I'm confused。 How are you seeing this so clearly？ And then other times； you
see things far away—things
that don't happen？〃
Her eyes tightened。 I wondered if she guessed what I was thinking of。
〃It's clear because it's immediate and close； and I'm really concentrating。
The faraway things that e on
their own—those are just glimpses； faint maybes。 Plus； I see my kind more
easily than yours。 Edward is
even easier because I'm so attuned to him。〃
〃You see me sometimes；〃 I reminded her。
She shook her head。 〃Not as clearly。〃
I sighed。 〃I really wish you could have been right about me。 In the beginning；
when you first saw things
about me； before we even met〃
〃What do you mean？〃
〃You saw me bee one of you。〃 I barely mouthed the words。
She sighed。 〃It was a possibility at the time。〃
〃At the time；〃 I repeated。
〃Actually； Bella〃 She hesitated； and then seemed to make a choice。
〃Honestly； I think it's all gotten
beyond ridiculous。 I'm debating whether to just change you myself。〃
I stared at her； frozen with shock。 Instantly； my mind resisted her words。 I
couldn't afford that kind of
hope if she changed her mind。
〃Did I scare you？〃 she wondered。 〃I thought that's what you wanted。〃
〃I do！〃 I gasped。 〃Oh； Alice； do it now！ I could help you so much—and I
wouldn't slow you down。 Bite
me！〃
〃Shh；〃 she cautioned。 The attendant was looking in our direction again。 〃Try
to be reasonable；〃 she
whispered。 〃We don't have enough time。 We have to get into Volterra tomorrow。
You'd be writhing in
pain for days。〃 She made a face。 〃And I don't think the other passengers would
react well。〃
I bit my lip。 〃If you don't do it now； you'll change your mind。〃
〃No。〃 She frowned； her expression unhappy。 〃I don't think I will。 He'll be
furious； but what will he be able
to do about it？〃
My heart beat faster。 〃Nothing at all。〃
She laughed quietly； and then sighed。 〃You have too much faith in me； Bella。
I'm not sure that I can。 I'll
probably just end up killing you。〃
〃I'll take my chances。〃
〃You are so bizarre； even for a human。〃
〃Thanks。〃
〃Oh well； this is purely hypothetical at this point； anyway。 First we have to
live through tomorrow。〃
〃Good point。〃 But at least I had something to hope for if we did。 If Alice
made good on her
promise—and if she didn't kill me—then Edward could run after his
distractions all he wanted； and I
could follow。 I wouldn't let him be distracted。 Maybe； when I was beautiful
and strong； he wouldn't want
distractions。
〃Go back to sleep；〃 she encouraged me。 〃I'll wake you up when there's
something new。〃
〃Right；〃 I grumbled； certain that sleep was a lost cause now。 Alice pulled her
legs up on the seat；
wrapping her arms around them and leaning her forehead against her knees。 She
rocked back and forth
as she concentrated。
I rested my head against the seat； watching her； and the next thing I knew；
she was snapping the shade
closed against the faint brightening in the eastern sky。
〃What's happening？〃 I mumbled。
〃They've told him no；〃 she said quietly。 I noticed at once that her enthusiasm
was gone。
My voice choked in my throat with panic。 〃What's he going to do？〃
〃It was chaotic at first。 I was only getting flickers； he was changing plans
so quickly。〃
〃What kinds of plans？〃 I pressed。
〃There was a bad hour；〃 she whispered。 〃He'd decided to go hunting。〃
She looked at me； seeing the prehension in my face。
〃In the city；〃 she explained。 〃It got very close。 He changed his mind at the
last minute。〃
〃He wouldn't want to disappoint Carlisle；〃 I mumbled。 Not at the end。
〃Probably；〃 she agreed。
〃Will there be enough time？〃 As I spoke； there was a shift in the cabin
pressure。 I could feel the plane
angling downward。
〃I'm hoping so—if he sticks to his latest decision； maybe。〃
〃What is that？〃
〃He's going to keep it simple。 He's just going to walk out into the sun。〃
Just walk out into the sun。 That was all。
It would be enough。 The image of Edward in the meadow—glowing； shimmering
like his skin was made
of a million diamond facets—