“And since I cannot do it; Jane; it must have been unreal。”
“But; sir; when I said so to myself on rising this morning; and when I looked round the room to gather courage and fort from the cheerful aspect of each familiar object in full daylight; there—on the carpet—I saw what gave the distinct lie to my hypothesis;—the veil; torn from top to bottom in two halves!”
I felt Mr。 Rochester start and shudder; he hastily flung his arms round me。 “Thank God!” he exclaimed; “that if anything malignant did e near you last night; it was only the veil that was harmed。 Oh; to think what might have happened!”
He drew his breath short; and strained me so close to him; I could scarcely pant。 After some minutes’ silence; he continued; cheerily—
“Now; Ja; I’ll explain to you all about it。 It was half dream; half reality。 A woman did; I doubt not; enter your room: and that woman was—must have been—Grace Poole。 You call her a strange being yourself: from all you know; you have reason so to call her— what did she do to me? what to Mason? In a state between sleeping and waking; you noticed her entrance and her actions; but feverish; almost delirious as you were; you ascribed to her a goblin appearance different from her own: the long dishevelled hair; the swelled black face; the exaggerated stature; were figments of imagination; results of nightmare: the spiteful tearing of the veil was real: and it is like her。 I see you would ask why I keep such a woman in my house: when we have been married a year and a day; I will tell you; but not now。 Are you satisfied; Jane? Do you accept my solution of the mystery?”
I reflected; and in truth it appeared to me the only possible one: satisfied I was not; but to please him I endeavoured to appear so— relieved; I certainly did feel; so I answered him with a contented smile。 And now; as it was long past one; I prepared to leave him。
“Does not Sophie sleep with Adèle in the nursery?” he asked; as I lit my candle。
“Yes; sir。”
“And there is room enough in Adèle’s little bed for you。 You must share it with her to…night; Jane: it is no wonder that the incident you have related should make you nervous; and I would rather you did not sleep alone: promise me to go to the nursery。”
“I shall be very glad to do so; sir。”
“And fasten the door securely on the inside。 Wake Sophie when you go upstairs; under pretence of requesting her to rouse you in good time to…morrow; for you must be dressed and have finished breakfast before eight。 And now; no more sombre thoughts: chase dull care away; Ja。 Don’t you hear to what soft whispers the wind has fallen? and there is no more beating of rain against the window… panes: look here” (he lifted up the curtain)—“it is a lovely night!”
It was。 Half heaven was pure and stainless: the clouds; now trooping before the wind; which had shifted to the west; were filing off eastward in long; silvered columns。 The moon shone peacefully。
“Well;” said Mr。 Rochester; gazing inquiringly into my eyes; “how is my Ja now?”
“The night is serene; sir; and so am I。”
“And you will not dream of separation and sorrow to…night; but of happy love and blissful union。”
This prediction was but half fulfilled: I did not indeed dream of sorrow; but as little did I dream of joy; for I never slept at all。 With little Adèle in my arms; I watched the slumber of childhood—so tranquil; so passionless; so innocent—and waited for the ing day: all my life was awake and astir in my frame: and as soon as the sun rose I rose too。 I remember Adèle clung to me as I left her: I remember I kissed her as I loosened her little hands from my neck; and I cried over her with strange emotion; and quitted her because I feared my sobs would break her still sound repose。 She seemed the emblem of my past life; and he I was now to array myself to meet; the dread; but adored; type of my unknown future day。
Chapter 26
Sophie came at seven to dress me: she was very long indeed in acplishing her task; so long that Mr。 Rochester; grown; I suppose; impatient of my delay; sent up to ask why I did not e。 She was just fastening my veil (the plain square of blond after all) to my hair with a brooch; I hurried from under her hands as soon as I could。
“Stop!” she cried in French。 “Look at yourself in the mirror: you have not taken one peep。”
So I turned at the door: I saw a robed and veiled figure; so unlike my usual self that it seemed almost the image of a stranger。 “Jane!” called a voice; and I hastened down。 I was received at the foot of the stairs by Mr。 Rochester。
“Lingerer!” he said; “my brain is on fire with impatience; and you tarry so long!”
He took me into the dining…room; surveyed me keenly all over; pronounced me “fair as a lily; and not only the pride of his life; but the desire of his eyes;” and then telling me he would give me but ten minutes to eat some breakfast; he rang the bell。 One of his lately hired servants; a footman; answered it。
“Is John getting the carriage ready?”
“Yes; sir。”
“Is the luggage brought down?”
“They are bringing it down; sir。”
“Go you to the church: see if Mr。 Wood (the clergyman) and the clerk are there: return and tell me。”
The church; as the reader knows; was but just beyond the gates; the footman soon returned。
“Mr。 Wood is in the vestry; sir; putting on his surplice。”
“And the carriage?”
“The horses are harnessing。”
“We shall not want it to go to church; but it must be ready the moment we return: all the boxes and luggage arranged and strapped on; and the coachman in his seat。”
“Yes; sir。”
“Jane; are you ready?”
I rose。 There were no groomsmen; no bridesmaids; no relatives to wait for or marshal: none but Mr。 Rochester and I。 Mrs。 Fairfax stood in the hall as we passed。 I would fain have spoken to her; but my hand was held by a grasp of iron: I was hurried along by a stride I could hardly follow; and to look at Mr。 Rochester’s face was to feel that not a second of delay would be tolerated for any purpose。 I wonder what other bridegroom ever looked as he did—so bent up to a purpose; so grimly resolute: or who; under such steadfast brows; ever revealed such flaming and flashing eyes。
I know not whether the day was fair or foul; in descending the drive; I gazed neither on sky nor earth: my heart was with my eyes; and both seemed migrated into Mr。 Rochester’s frame。 I wanted to see the invisible thing on which; as we went along; he appeared to fasten a glance fierce and fell。 I wanted to feel the thoughts whose force he seemed breasting and resisting。
At the churchyard wicket he stopped: he discovered I was quite out of breath。 “Am I cruel in my love?” he said。 “Delay an instant: lean on me; Jane。”
And now I can recall the picture of the grey old house of God rising calm before me; of a rook wheeling round the steeple; of a ruddy morning sky beyond。 I remember something; too; of the green grave… mounds; and I have not forgotten; either; two figures of strangers straying amongst the low hillocks and reading the mementoes graven on the few mossy head…stones。 I noticed them; because; as they saw us; they passed round to the back of the church; and I doubted not they were going to enter by the side…aisle door and witness the ceremony。 By Mr。 Rochester they were not observed; he was earnestly looking at my face from which the blood had; I daresay; momentarily fled: for I felt my forehead dewy; and my cheeks and lips cold。 When I rallied; which I soon did; he walked gently with me up the path to the porch。
ple; the priest waited in his white surplice at the lowly altar; the clerk beside him。 All was still: two shadows only moved in a remote corner。 My conjecture had been correct: the strangers had slipped in before us; and they now stood by the vault of the Rochesters; their backs towards us; viewing through the rails the old time…stained marble tomb; where a kneeling angel guarded the remains of Damer de Rochester; slain at Marston Moor in the time of the civil wars; and of Elizabeth; his wife。
Our place was taken at the munion rails。 Hearing a cautious step behind me; I glanced over my shoulder: one of the strangers—a gentleman; evidently—was advancing up the chancel。 The service began。 The explanation of the intent of matrimony was gone through; and then the clergyman came a step further forward; and; bending slightly towards Mr。 Rochester; went on。
“I require and charge you both (as ye will answer at the dreadful day of judgment; when the secrets of all hearts shall be disclosed); that if either of you know any impediment why ye may not lawfully be joined together in matrimony; ye do now confess it; for be ye well assured that so many as are coupled together otherwise than God’s Word doth allow; are not joined together by God; neither is their matrimony lawful。”
He paused; as the custom is。 When is the pause after that sentence ever broken by reply? Not; perhaps; once in a hundred years。 And the clergyman; who had not lifted his eyes from his book; and had held his breath but for a moment; was proceeding: his hand was already stretched towards Mr。 Rochester; as his lips unclosed to ask; “Wilt thou have this woman for thy wedded wife?”—when a distinct and near voice said—
“The marriage cannot go on: I declare the existence of an impediment。”
The clergyman looked up at the speaker and stood mute; the clerk did the same; Mr。 Rochester moved slightly; as if an earthquake had rolled under his feet: taking a firmer footing; and not turning his head or eyes; he said; “Proceed。”
Profound silence fell when he had uttered that word; with deep but low intonation。 Presently Mr。 Wood said—
“I cannot proceed without some investigation into what has been asserted; and evidence of its truth or falsehood。”
“The ceremony is quite broken off;” subjoined the voice behind us。 “I am in a condition to prove my allegation: an insuperable impediment to this marriage exists。”
Mr。 Rochester heard; but heeded not: he stood stubborn and rigid; making no movement but to possess himself of my hand。 What a hot and strong grasp he had! and hoarble was his pale; firm; massive front at this moment! How his eye shone; still watchful; and yet wild beneath!
Mr。 Wood seemed at a loss。 “What is the nature of the impediment?” he asked。 “Perhaps it may be got over—explained away?”
“Hardly;” was the answer。 “I have called it insuperable; and I speak advisedly。”
The speaker came forward and leaned on the rails。 He continued; uttering each word distinctly; calmly; steadily; but not loudly—
“It simply consists in the existence of a previous marriage。 Mr。 Rochester has a wife now living。”
My nerves vibrated to those low…spoken words as they had never vibrated to thunder—my blood felt their subtle violence as it had never felt frost or fire; but I was collected; and in no danger of swooning。 I looked at Mr。 Rochester: I made him look at me。 His whole face was colourless rock: his eye was both spark and flint。 He disavowed nothing: he seemed as if he would defy all things。 Without speaking; without smiling; without seeming to recognise in me a human being; he only twined my waist with his arm and riveted me to his side。
“Who are you?” he asked of the intruder。
“My name is Briggs; a solicitor of—Street;